Love Sick

Two words that don't seem to go together: love and sick.  Yet in the Song of All Songs (Song of Solomon or Song of Songs) the bride mentions it several times, 2:5 'sustain me with raisins, refresh me with apples, for i am sick with love;' 5:8 'I charge you, daughters of Jerusalem, that if you find the man I love, what are you to tell Him? That I am sick with love.'

Bickle describes the state of being love sick as: wanting something more than anything else, when other things get in the way it pains your heart, wanting Him so much more and more it pains your heart, when He stirs our heart we want more and more of Him, when we let something get in the way of Him it pains our heart, we would do anything to get back to His presence.

This sounds more like obsession than love...  He is an all consuming fire, when He gets your heart, if you keep moving toward Him, eventually you will become obsessed.  If you are the type to worry about what people think you probably wont ever let yourself become consumed by him, you will never become obsessed, never completely in love.

Obsessed, anxious, desperate... Do these words define your heart towards Him?

It sounds wrong. It smacks a saintly christian virtue in the face. Can there really be no room for self-control when it comes to loving our Beloved?  Mt 8:22 'Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead.'   Morbidly obsessed... but dont we have to be a good steward of what He has given us? Luke 14:26 Jesus said, 'If anyone wants to follow me but does not hate his father, mother, wife, brother, sister, yes even his own life besides, he can not be my disciple.'  Giving Him 3 hours a week on saturday or sunday isn't being love sick.  He will not be satisfied with second place. Will we be satisfied with 3 hours a week?

When we serve Him despite our situations and when we dont feel the lovey dovey He says to us 'Turn your eyes away from me, because they overwhelm me!'

Have you ever been overwhelmed by someones gaze? Papa, feels that for us in our obedience to Him.

He is powerfully moved by our affection and desire for Him.  Even if we dont feel the goo, He is overcome with emotions for us.

Think about it.  What do you get the Gd who owns everything? Money, technology, food, kingdoms, countries?  Na, He's already got that, He's board with that...

He want's what only we can give Him.  Our willing, free, unashamed, unabashed love and devotion.  Not because He bribes our affections, but because we are consumed by His splendor, because we are love sick for Him.

Love sick

A disease...  Everyone will wonder why you don't do the things they do.  They will say what a strange person you are.  Who doesn't go to the movies?  Who doesn't want to go party in the bars?  Who doesn't want to go pull some chicks?...  They will treat us like we are weirdos. Like we're contagious.

They will ask you (SoS 5:9) Why do you love this Man so much?  Why are you so distraught with love?  Is it worth it?

IS it worth it? Is HE worth it?


Papa, sometimes it just hurts so much to love You.  In my pride it's so easy for me to be offended at the way You do things, but I don't know better than You!  I know You want good things for me, better more valuable things than video games and entertainment. Teach me valuable from base. Let me be confident in that You are moved by my mature desire to joyfully obey You even if my ability to do so is immature.
I'm sorry for thinking the way my heart is moved by You is You manipulating me or controlling me.  It's true You move my heart so much i feel sick, faint, anxious, frustrated.  I am love sick.  Overcome with desire to follow you yet lacking the ability to do a good job of committing! Let me not be ashamed. Strengthen me, support me, correct me if need be, but don't let me hide from You!
Nothing can satisfy but You.  Even satisfaction doesn't compare to Your consuming fire...  Teach me to be content with the ever increasing desire You have placed in my heart.