o what a night!!

And morning!!

dude, this is a really sweet story...
ok, so last night after keith left for a meeting i picked up my guitar and started to worship the Lrd. as soon as the words came out of my mouth fear hit me like a brick.   i mean we are talking straight up fear: fear of the dark, 'fear faces' (seeing scary faces in my mind or in inanimate objects), fear of something scary behind me, fear of something being behind doors or corners, fear of upstairs, fear of whats outside, i was shaking in my boots.  not only that but the light above me starts flickering!  how crazy!!

because it hit me so hard (and the light was flickering!) i realized it was fear right away.  there was no sneaking up on me it just pounced.  so, i tried singing harder.  the flickering light was a bit of a distraction and i felt a jolt of fear every time it did.  i command fear to go, nothing...  i feel convicted about something i told someone earlier so i send an apology and make things right.  nothing.  i stand on what i know.  'Gd has not given me a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind.'  this helps me not freak out and leave the house, (i seriously wanted to go somewhere else, but when the Lrd is on your side why run away!?!?)  so, i stayed.  looking over my shoulder every once and a while while i play some worship.  the worship helps.  i text my small group for some prayer back up.

The Lrd reminds me about erics prayer that our small group would be a spiritual covering for someone in the group.  i ask this person what they are doing.  they aren't experiencing any fear but they were watching the nutcracker.  i think this is interesting but nothing sinks in till later...

so, at this point im freaking out coz im thinking it's probably some deep rooted land issue or some different principality over this area...  im really just grabbing at air.   my small group's prayers helped and it chilled out a little.   i start writing in my journal thinking this is something i'll have to deal with later coz i have to get up early.  i go through what i think it could be and come back around to erics prayer...  and remember a little vision i had when i heard the word nutcracker. 

The Lrd showed me a mouse head with a crown on it.  it was the mouse king guy from the nutcracker.  i remember being afraid of this character when i was a kid... i prayed against the spirit of the mouse king, and the demon king, and i feel it leaving me... lots of yawning! haha  so, now i pray against the spirits of fear of the dark, faces, ominous presences, surprise... i asked the Lrd to give me an expectancy of good things, that i would see peace instead of fear.  and guess what....  i had a new world! 

i stepped outside and marveled at how beautiful it was.  something that was terrifying just minuets before was now peaceful and calm.

How cool is the Lrd?  about infinity cool.  ya


to top that off my secret blesser really raised the bar today.  well, it was my first gift but it raised the bar non the less!  

i cam home to a recently cleaned room, and my laundry was almost done...  surprise to me!!  if only the truck at Target had been bigger my laundry would have been done, but what a blessing!!

i really could kiss whoever did it.  Boy or Girl.  on the cheek of course!!

so, love from the Father of Fathers and love from one of His children.  its been good!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

also, this just hit me as i proof read this post... Gd has given me a SOUND MIND.  i want to receive the mind of Messiah!!